"If it is to be, it is up to me..."
Yes, I am back.
And I will make a conscious effort to stay positive! Hahaha!!!
I have been described in many ways - most recently as I enter into the "Prime of My Life", the most often heard were that I am multi-talented, wittingly-intelligent, highly-capable, infamously-confident, and the usual of late; that I am blessed with a set of charismatic leadership skills.
Let me assure you - if they are valid description of me - that all these are not without the normal notoriety... ;)
But let's be honest, modesty is definitely NOT one of them! :D
These past months (in fact, years) of my career at the "Safari", I have often been imprisoned by my own intellect.
I felt that my bosses do not know how to appreciate the package in which I come.
It seemed that they are so dumb, that they did not know how to position me for maximum potential.
I strongly felt that I was undermined & under-utilized.
I began to think that they do not respect my decisions & will never be contend with my contribution and thus, I will never get what I want.
I was rebellious, I complained, I made sure people in the workplace heard my complaints, I went to the extend of almost being labelled "anti-organization", short of only being sidelined even for a staff of my post with managerial authority.
Then somehow, the fact of the matter sunk into me.
Suddenly I started realizing with a lot of shock: It was not so much as to my bosses being unappreciative of what I am or what I could achieve.
It was me all along, I have failed to use all the strength I possessed to come out with the best results.
I have overlooked my own potential & did not put in the right amount of positivity to maximize on my best qualities to give what my bosses had expected of me.
What a shoe in the head!
A couple of weeks back, I made a decision.
That I shall from now on, put these God-given qualities to good use.
Even in the "Safari", even if my days here are numbered, I would want to be remembered with all the adjectives which preceded all these paragraphs of this entry.
My only hope is that it is not too late.
But then again, even if it is, I would know that the Stephen Fah who was meant to be is still around.
As we enter into the Anniversary of the Nation's Independence, I wish that all efforts, minds & souls be liberated as well.
So, stay positive & Go For It!
I'll see you at the TOP!
Happy Merdeka, folks.
Stay out of trouble :)
