After about a month of searching, a couple of fortnights of turmoil & a week of anticipation, finally; I will from now dwell in a new sanctuary.
It is not without hiccups.
For when I realised it, crap, the AC actually emits a certain foul stench after 1 hour of being in operation.
The shower is a little too under-pressured to my liking, but I would survive that.
Without the AC, I would need to open the windows in order to continue breathing.
And that’s when I remember, shucks, we live in a country where we’re still teaching the citizens how to rid their homes of the risks of dengue.
These are the stuff I could take with a spoonful of sugar.
And the queen-sized bed has never seemed bigger.
With a mattress protector, the feeling is simply marvellous; soft & comfortable as the sheets are new as well.
But it felt vastly too huge.
Even without the AC, I could not feel anything else but just how cold the room was.
Maybe it was not just the room.
My first winks came at about 4AM.
But I forgot to dream, because at the end of it, the fatigue is still lying at the back of my head.
Today, the LCD & the washer were sent up.
Appliances of entertainment & convenience.
Will I get to use them tonight it anybody’s guess, as I would most probably be still too tired to even want to do anything else but to get used to the cold & lonely albeit new surrounding.
"Though I may be looked up upon by a handful, shook hands with a few;
Make public speeches to many, have dinner with one or two...
I will still need to realise, that when daylight is finally gone;
The time when the soul truly needs it most; I will still be going home alone..."
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Thanks, but No Thanks...
"If you pick up a starving dog and make him prosperous, he will not bite you..."
- Mark Twain (1835 – 1910)
But we’re not dogs, we were not starving.
And we prospered through hard work by our very own pair of hands.
You’ve guessed it.
Today, we shall talk about gratitude.
Such a misused word, oftentimes misunderstood.
There should be times when we needed someone to keep the doors of the elevators open just so we could get out with all our bags or stuff that we need to carry home.
"Thank you" would not be such a difficult thing to say.
There should be instances when we could use an extra pair of hands & were fortunate enough that someone was there to stretch out theirs.
To these kind-hearted people, we wish them the best in all their future undertakings.
There are times also that we are going through very important days of our lives & the people who matter to us would take the extra effort to make sure the occasion works our perfectly.
No matter how they would say otherwise, we would feel to be greatly in their debt.
There are times when things look bleak, the options unclear, the road seemed dark & uncertain, people have helped us pull through the toughest moments of our lives.
To these folks, the words "Thank You" would be an understatement.
Chances are, we would even cherish these people for the rest of our lives.
However, there are also those who, in the name of having done something or with the thought that they had, misuse the word gratitude.
For instance;
It’s ridiculous that the people who once helped us feel that we shall be so indebted that we would lose our souls to them, to the extend of going against our very will & do things out of gratitude even if it means there won’t be anything beneficial to expect from that action.
It’s also unacceptable that people who have spent a chunk of their lives with us expect that we will forever be committed to them out of being grateful, not taking into consideration that the days to come would actually spell more hurt, anguish, pain & disaster.
And it’s totally outright outrageously stupid for an employer to even have an inkling of a feeling that the staff of his company should be eternally grateful to their employment to be able to afford their livelihood or for having better or more lavish options or appear to have increased their purchasing power, not even thinking that for a fact, the time & effort put into making a living by the staff, all the sacrifices made in the name of that job & to add salt to the wound, the people in the company resemble animals in a safari, habitants of old folks homes or even patients in the mental asylum to be working with in the first place!
Hello, boss.
We’re paid for our work-lah, you think it’s charity ah?
Maybe you will feel you’re the biggest philanthropist in your donkey world, since you have a habit of doing so much charity by collecting stubborn, "I was here first", out-dated, old-fashioned & otherwise-unemployable-elsewhere senile citizens who keep extending their "post-mandatory retirement age employment contracts" & keep sinking their shrivelled hands annually into the bonuses which are so rightfully earned by others.
So redundant are these people that you even create unnecessary positions that would not even exist in companies which run on a minute scale of common sense.
W.T.F.?
This entry is by no means an attempt to undermine the virtue of being grateful, for gratitude is the mother of all virtues worth respecting.
I certainly do not wish to be misunderstood as a "B.U.L.B. – Blardy Ungrateful Little B*stard"...
But some people just have got to be told off at their faces.
Thanks, sorry but f*ck you!
- Mark Twain (1835 – 1910)
But we’re not dogs, we were not starving.
And we prospered through hard work by our very own pair of hands.
You’ve guessed it.
Today, we shall talk about gratitude.
Such a misused word, oftentimes misunderstood.
There should be times when we needed someone to keep the doors of the elevators open just so we could get out with all our bags or stuff that we need to carry home.
"Thank you" would not be such a difficult thing to say.
There should be instances when we could use an extra pair of hands & were fortunate enough that someone was there to stretch out theirs.
To these kind-hearted people, we wish them the best in all their future undertakings.
There are times also that we are going through very important days of our lives & the people who matter to us would take the extra effort to make sure the occasion works our perfectly.
No matter how they would say otherwise, we would feel to be greatly in their debt.
There are times when things look bleak, the options unclear, the road seemed dark & uncertain, people have helped us pull through the toughest moments of our lives.
To these folks, the words "Thank You" would be an understatement.
Chances are, we would even cherish these people for the rest of our lives.
However, there are also those who, in the name of having done something or with the thought that they had, misuse the word gratitude.
For instance;
It’s ridiculous that the people who once helped us feel that we shall be so indebted that we would lose our souls to them, to the extend of going against our very will & do things out of gratitude even if it means there won’t be anything beneficial to expect from that action.
It’s also unacceptable that people who have spent a chunk of their lives with us expect that we will forever be committed to them out of being grateful, not taking into consideration that the days to come would actually spell more hurt, anguish, pain & disaster.
And it’s totally outright outrageously stupid for an employer to even have an inkling of a feeling that the staff of his company should be eternally grateful to their employment to be able to afford their livelihood or for having better or more lavish options or appear to have increased their purchasing power, not even thinking that for a fact, the time & effort put into making a living by the staff, all the sacrifices made in the name of that job & to add salt to the wound, the people in the company resemble animals in a safari, habitants of old folks homes or even patients in the mental asylum to be working with in the first place!
Hello, boss.
We’re paid for our work-lah, you think it’s charity ah?
Maybe you will feel you’re the biggest philanthropist in your donkey world, since you have a habit of doing so much charity by collecting stubborn, "I was here first", out-dated, old-fashioned & otherwise-unemployable-elsewhere senile citizens who keep extending their "post-mandatory retirement age employment contracts" & keep sinking their shrivelled hands annually into the bonuses which are so rightfully earned by others.
So redundant are these people that you even create unnecessary positions that would not even exist in companies which run on a minute scale of common sense.
W.T.F.?
This entry is by no means an attempt to undermine the virtue of being grateful, for gratitude is the mother of all virtues worth respecting.
I certainly do not wish to be misunderstood as a "B.U.L.B. – Blardy Ungrateful Little B*stard"...
But some people just have got to be told off at their faces.
Thanks, sorry but f*ck you!
Saturday, July 25, 2009
It'll Pass...
"Life is only travelled once; today’s moment becomes tomorrow’s memory.
Enjoy every moment, good or bad, because the gift of life is life itself.."
When we let go, there are things we inevitably lose grip of.
For better or for worse, most of the time, time itself will tell.
When something which we have held on to for a period of our lives no longer seemed to be ours to keep, perhaps the only rational action next would be just to let go.
As long as the memory serves a purpose to bring about a smile, a sigh or even a raised eyebrow; we could be contended that those moments are forever ours to cherish.
It’s been said time & again, that to truly appreciate something; we may not necessarily need to keep it in our possession.
For what’s good of a love if we confine it in our pockets for keeps?
Once love is defined & confined, it starts to wither & die.
Instead, it should live in our hearts; in order for us to pass it forward so that others will also be able to experience it & cherish it their hearts forever instead.
Difficult, because our minds have been fashioned since young, that; if we like or love something enough, we should get a hold over it & never let go.
Especially true when we meet someone who comes into our lives whom we are so confident are the ones who would make an impact & we seem to be unable to live a minute separated from them.
Of course, it would be blissful to have them in our lives for the rest of it.
I am a believer of putting the effort to make things work just so that 2 people could enrich each other’s numbered days on this face of the Earth.
But, I am also a believer that when the days come that separation is inevitable, the mentality gap is inching wider as how planets are losing orbit by the day, the feelings & emotions are long jaded & faded, or the commitment doesn’t seem to add up in that relationship anymore, well, the only option to maintain a memory worth cherishing forever is just simply to let go.
Otherwise, which would you rather have in the remaining days of your life?
A bitter relationship where all compromise have failed, trust & understanding seem such an alien word with a partner whom you do not have more than 20 words to share in a day?
Or a brief & painful encounter of letting go, in order to preserve the moments where the passage of time has led you both, where each experience has its marvels, its ups & downs, which glow & sparkle to bring about a "Hmm, those were the days..."
I have made my choice.
It was painful.
It still is.
All I can hope for now is that it won’t hurt too long.
Wish me luck.
"Always believe that life itself is a gift.
That’s why today is called 'the present'...
Live life a day at a time, with no regrets."
That is probably the best gift you could ever have, for yourself to yourself.
Enjoy every moment, good or bad, because the gift of life is life itself.."
When we let go, there are things we inevitably lose grip of.
For better or for worse, most of the time, time itself will tell.
When something which we have held on to for a period of our lives no longer seemed to be ours to keep, perhaps the only rational action next would be just to let go.
As long as the memory serves a purpose to bring about a smile, a sigh or even a raised eyebrow; we could be contended that those moments are forever ours to cherish.
It’s been said time & again, that to truly appreciate something; we may not necessarily need to keep it in our possession.
For what’s good of a love if we confine it in our pockets for keeps?
Once love is defined & confined, it starts to wither & die.
Instead, it should live in our hearts; in order for us to pass it forward so that others will also be able to experience it & cherish it their hearts forever instead.
Difficult, because our minds have been fashioned since young, that; if we like or love something enough, we should get a hold over it & never let go.
Especially true when we meet someone who comes into our lives whom we are so confident are the ones who would make an impact & we seem to be unable to live a minute separated from them.
Of course, it would be blissful to have them in our lives for the rest of it.
I am a believer of putting the effort to make things work just so that 2 people could enrich each other’s numbered days on this face of the Earth.
But, I am also a believer that when the days come that separation is inevitable, the mentality gap is inching wider as how planets are losing orbit by the day, the feelings & emotions are long jaded & faded, or the commitment doesn’t seem to add up in that relationship anymore, well, the only option to maintain a memory worth cherishing forever is just simply to let go.
Otherwise, which would you rather have in the remaining days of your life?
A bitter relationship where all compromise have failed, trust & understanding seem such an alien word with a partner whom you do not have more than 20 words to share in a day?
Or a brief & painful encounter of letting go, in order to preserve the moments where the passage of time has led you both, where each experience has its marvels, its ups & downs, which glow & sparkle to bring about a "Hmm, those were the days..."
I have made my choice.
It was painful.
It still is.
All I can hope for now is that it won’t hurt too long.
Wish me luck.
"Always believe that life itself is a gift.
That’s why today is called 'the present'...
Live life a day at a time, with no regrets."
That is probably the best gift you could ever have, for yourself to yourself.
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