Fah: The Perfect Asshole...

"I may be an asshole, but that doesn’t mean I am always in the wrong. Think about it..."

As I posted elsewhere, somewhere sometime ago; I have been described in many ways.

Among them: arrogant & egoistic.
Narcissistic.
Know this word? Tsk... look it up.


Yes.
I admit.
I take pride in my work, my achievements, my failures & eventual successes.
I am proud & I keep my head held high because I am a man of principles.
There are just so many things I would not do.

No compromise.
Non-negotiable.

Period.

Yes, I start off most of my sentences with the letter "I".
In many things I choose to do, if they involves others, I would not do less than the best.
Otherwise, I wouldn’t be bothered to get involved.


I am proud & I soak in all the attention every time glory is attained.
But that does not mean I don’t recognise a good job well done by others.
Just that it is sickening that a good job well done is so normally expected of me, they usually go unappreciated.


I used to achieve so much when my priorities are in place.
I used to be able to avoid conflict because I have my priorities set very clearly;

1. God
2. Family
3. Career
4. Friends
5. Hobbies



But lately, I have slackened.

I chose to do what was interesting, what seemed fulfilling & fun.
I spent most of my life with people whom I felt would take commitment seriously & take me as priority as well.

And then, as time went by, as we got to know each other better, it wasn’t so fun anymore.
Nothing is interesting ever again.
Commitment is as & when the feel-good-factor is around...
And it is just not as fulfilling as it used to be.


But the one that pulls the trigger is the one who chooses to judge & tells me I am wrong even before they know the whole story.
Come on lah, I can't be wrong all the time?
Nobody's perfect.
So how can I be the perfect asshole? :/


Ah well, it doesn't matter anymore.


Now, I will need to realign my priorities.
Really go back to the principles I once had.
Spend more of my energy in the things which will last and people whom matter most.

And the new job.
So exciting!
Totally! :D


It is about time I stop listening to those who tell me that I will have to put up with all these because of who I am.
Instead, it is time they accept who I have become because of the things I have put up with.


Enough is enough.

Kthanksbye… :)

D.E.C.I.D.E.

"What you are today is the direct result of the choices you made yesterday..."

Some people are just like that.

They whine, sulk, bitch about stuff which are happening to them, on them or around them.

What they fail to realize is: That whatever circumstances you are in, you chose to be in them yourself.


If you don't like the way things are, walk away.
Simple.
But how many of us can do that?


Some of the people I know like to make the best of a coffee break making the coffee more bitter.
Their jobs, their families, their health condition, their neighbours, their children, etc... (the list goes on, OMG you won't believe the things people complain about...)

To these folks, I tell them: Change.
Firstly, the circumstances of the things you can.
Otherwise, change your attitude towards the things you can't...


Imagine, one fella coming to you & complain that he has got rashes all the time.
He hates how his skin is, and lately, he found out that he has lice.
He is also not gonna be surprised if the dermatologist would to tell him he has got living parasites sucking the bloody daylight out of him.
We would think that the natural question is: "What are your sentiments on personal hygiene?"

And he may just answer: "Well, I do shower once a week & my shower cream is the expensive type-lah!"

Get my point?


We always see things that happen to us as "something that befalls upon us".

Let me tell you now.
That if you're tired of the condition you live in, change it.
If you are disappointed with the way things happen around you, change your surroundings where you can be in a position to make things happen.
If you feel that the parasites take too much of your blood, scrub harder.


I seriously want to know who came up with the abbreviations "F.M.L.".
I would want to know if he or she really meant it.


After all, the secret to true happiness lies within out decisions.

Remember:
D - Don't
E - Ever
C - Complain,
I - It
D - Disgusts
E - Everybody


Have a great September.

The FAH is back...^^

"If it is to be, it is up to me..."

Yes, I am back.
And I will make a conscious effort to stay positive! Hahaha!!!


I have been described in many ways - most recently as I enter into the "Prime of My Life", the most often heard were that I am multi-talented, wittingly-intelligent, highly-capable, infamously-confident, and the usual of late; that I am blessed with a set of charismatic leadership skills.

Let me assure you - if they are valid description of me - that all these are not without the normal notoriety... ;)
But let's be honest, modesty is definitely NOT one of them! :D


These past months (in fact, years) of my career at the "Safari", I have often been imprisoned by my own intellect.

I felt that my bosses do not know how to appreciate the package in which I come.
It seemed that they are so dumb, that they did not know how to position me for maximum potential.

I strongly felt that I was undermined & under-utilized.
I began to think that they do not respect my decisions & will never be contend with my contribution and thus, I will never get what I want.

I was rebellious, I complained, I made sure people in the workplace heard my complaints, I went to the extend of almost being labelled "anti-organization", short of only being sidelined even for a staff of my post with managerial authority.


Then somehow, the fact of the matter sunk into me.
Suddenly I started realizing with a lot of shock: It was not so much as to my bosses being unappreciative of what I am or what I could achieve.


It was me all along, I have failed to use all the strength I possessed to come out with the best results.

I have overlooked my own potential & did not put in the right amount of positivity to maximize on my best qualities to give what my bosses had expected of me.

What a shoe in the head!


A couple of weeks back, I made a decision.
That I shall from now on, put these God-given qualities to good use.
Even in the "Safari", even if my days here are numbered, I would want to be remembered with all the adjectives which preceded all these paragraphs of this entry.


My only hope is that it is not too late.
But then again, even if it is, I would know that the Stephen Fah who was meant to be is still around.


As we enter into the Anniversary of the Nation's Independence, I wish that all efforts, minds & souls be liberated as well.


So, stay positive & Go For It!
I'll see you at the TOP!

Happy Merdeka, folks.
Stay out of trouble :)